You have always been in my life. When I was dealing with an overwhelming amount of stress, you came out of hiding. I allowed you to control my emotions, thoughts, actions and feelings. Because I felt weak, I allowed you to be ME.
When I learned coping skills, worked with therapists and allowed others to help me, I let you know who was in control of my life. ME. I began to venture out and live a life of joy and happiness.
You went away for several years, only to resurface when I began to feel sad, worthless and tired of my illness. You urged me to sleep and stay in bed all day. You encouraged me to shut the window blinds and allow darkness into my life. I cried and you laughed. I became you again. I wanted silence and loneliness.
I began to read scripture and ask GOD to come into my life. As I read, Isaiah 41:10 ” Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”. I began to feel God’s presence. I read this scripture over and over again. I began to internalize its meaning and felt stronger. You (Depression) were fearful. You knew where you would be going.
This will be my last letter to you – Depression. Stay away. I am strong. I am brave. I love ME. I love my family, friends and community. I will not walk in darkness with you ever again. God is by my side. I will choose to walk in the light.
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.”
Practice Makes Purpose!